Awe💙 This is such a sad story of a lost family member 😻 and friendship!!! 🥲 She is incapable of giving you the apology you deserve, and even if she could, it would never be enough. Forgiveness might seem unimaginable, but forgiving her because she knows no better is helpful, but that is not saying she is right on any level!!! And continuing a friendship is out of the equation!!! I feel your losses. I broke up with my best friend of 35 years over a year ago!!! One loss is enough, but two are very devastating!!! I am truly sorry 💔